Posted in Mental Health, Tough Topics

I feel disconnected and depressed

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I love my son and my family but lately I don’t know how to be around them. I work 8-12 hours a day at a job I’ve grown to hate, I come home and clean and cook and my 18 mo old gets unruly to where sometimes I just don’t know what to do. I’ve literally been laying in bed for 2.5 hours,dad and son got home about an hour after me and when dad left I put son down for a nap.... I want to be that mom who’s creative and teaches their children all this amazing stuff but I just don’t know how to get out of funk. Probably doesn’t help that I just found out my insurance is cancelled so I can’t go to therapy either. I know this will pass I just miss enjoying life

  • Anonymous
    Jul 08

    It sounds like you're burnt out. Depending on your job, could you start looking for a new one? Being at a job you hate is only going to make matters worse.

  • Anonymous
    Jul 08

    You are definitely mentally (and physically) burnt out. I agree with above that you want to look for something with less hours if that if possible. You need a vacation or at least a few days away to recharge, as well. Do you have any friends you can confide in and talk this through? Do you get time to yourself at all? Even a few hours to get a haircut, take a walk outside, get a coffee and read? Can dad cook some meals or clean? You need to start with this and then progress to get yourself at a better, more balanced place.

  • Anonymous
    Jul 09

    I'm so sorry you're going through this. Because you mentioned affording therapy is an issue, I wanted to share this link: https://www.nami.org/Find-Your-Local-NAMI NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) has a huge network of local offices you can call to learn about affordable mental health resources in your area. There is almost always a free or very low cost option and all it takes is a simple phone call to find out. Good luck!

  • A
    Jul 09

    Thank you for the tips I’m going to reach out to my therapist and see what kind of payment plan I could possibly do. I will definitely look into NAMI that sounds like a great resource. Dad works late so I try hard to have dinner taken care if so we don’t eat at 930 every night. I try hard to practice self love and take care of myself, it’s just such a balancing act. I also sit out side and try to relax from time to time. I’m just discouraged exercise is miserable and I feel horrible physically. I don’t know how to get the jump start I need....