Posted in Mental Health, Postpartum Recovery, For Moms, Self Care

Postpartum depression or anxiety...

Anonymous

Do any of the other mommies on here suffer from or did suffer from Postpartum depression or anxiety? My ppd was at its worst when my son was 6weeks old or so & has since gone almost completely away but sometimes I still feel it sneaking up when I’m away from my son for too long like at work or such things. Also, when he’s not with me I have major anxiety about if he’s okay, how he’s feeling & if he’s doing okay away from me.

  • Melody
    Nov 27

    Yes, we went to my dad's lake house when my son was 4 weeks. I lost it. Openly weeping because I wanted to triw myself in the lake to end it all. My husband and I I had our first real fight ever because I wasn't telling him what was wrong. When I did the flood gates opened. We went home and I went to the doctor the next day. Lexapro and a low dose of Xanax and I'm somewhat normal again. Although when I'm really sleep deprived bad thoughts creep in. It's honestly the scariest thing I've ever dealt with

  • Anonymous
    Nov 27

    6 months PP and I had a bit of PP depression around 3/4 months (brought on by financial struggles too) but it’s really the anxiety that’s been hard for me. I get flashes of horrible things happening, freak accidents, and it sends me into a panic. I’m very rarely away from him and can barely stand it longer than an hour before I get worried. I don’t like leaving him alone with my mom or MIL (especially not dad or FIL)... honestly I can’t even leave him with my husband who I know doesn’t give him his full attention. I think it’s really common to feel this way but it’s not something you should make your normal. If I could afford counseling I would go...so maybe think about that.

  • Anonymous
    Nov 27

    Thank you both... this is definitely the scariest thing I’ve ever been faced with & I find myself often turning to prayer but I wish I could afford some counseling too.

  • Lulu
    Nov 27

    There are many counseling centers that will see you and only charge you based on income. Like if you can only afford $5 that is what they will charge you. I don't know what area you're in but maybe Google counseling based on income.

  • Dai
    Nov 28

    That feeling...It’s the worst. I had severe anxiety but hang in there it gets easier. He is now 11 months and I dont have those crazy attacks of anxiety ofnot wanting anyone to hold or see my baby. This too shall pass

  • Anonymous
    Nov 28

    Thank you all so much! I really appreciate all the insight!

  • Heather
    Dec 12

    This happens to me still after 15 months since giving birth. The flashes of images in my head of terrible things happening has been horrifying. They have been less frequent as the months pass but it still happens and it’s very upsetting. I feel like this is PPA and the images are a manifestation of that. Unfortunately it has made me feel that I can’t be out of sight of my child and since she was born I have only left her with my MIL 3 times for a few hours. This isn’t really sustainable and I do think I need to see a doctor and get on medication in order to go back to work. My doctor never prepared me for PPA and never really asked about it after birth, only PPD. I didn’t realize that’s what I was struggling with until recently. More discussion needs to happen around PPA! I’ve felt very isolated with it and unable to verbalize what was happening. I was afraid to tell anyone about these horrible images that would come into my head out of nowhere for fear of people thinking there was something severely wrong with me or I intended to harm my baby.